Wednesday, July 6, 2016

Coming Home

Today is the day that TC comes home. I can't believe I just wrote those words. I'm beyond excited to have him back with me but I know that the battle has not been won just yet. We have more rehabilitation to do and a long road ahead to full recovery, but I'm so happy to be taking this next step. I get to go see my horse every day now.

Big shout out to everyone who stuck with this blog in the last six months, it's been so incredibly boring I just can't stand it. Hopefully it will get more interesting as I can finally write about my favorite little baby horse. It's going to be tough to not write about EVERY ride since I've basically been writing a post any time my butt got near a horse.

This was taken on the worst day 
Just to reflect on all that we've been through, here is a short recap:

December 7th- Initial injury, in the blog post I mention a swelling on his right suspensory area but it seems so small and insignificant, it had been raining so much that I thought (and literally everyone I talked to, including my farrier) it was an abscess
December 11th- TC was totally sound, farrier had poked around and said that the abscess probably released inside and it would show up in a few weeks as it grew out
December 14th- I rode TC and he came up lame again, more soaking ensued and I started to wonder
December 15th- TC shows up with a weird swelling on his leg and is super lame again
December 16th- Initial vet visit with initial ultrasound (not with my vet), the vet finds that his suspensory has been torn in two places and I freak out a lot
December 17th- TC moves to my parents' ranch for rehab
December 18th- TC jumps out of his paddock at the ranch and is shunned to a box stall
December 21st- TC gets his first ultrasound with my vet, who deems it not as bad as we initially thought, but still a fairly serious injury
December 23rd- TC leaves for rehabilitation at the best place I can find in the area
January 28th- TC starts the aquapacer and is immediately an asshole about it
February 8th- TC starts swimming rather than doing the aquapacer
February 23rd- TC gets his second ultrasound after 60 days of rehab
April 15th- I get to watch TC swim for the first time!
April 26th- TC gets his third ultrasound (120 days of rehab) and my vet wants him to stay at rehab for another 60 days, but he gets to trot on the eurociser!
June 10th- I get to watch TC swim for the second time!
June 18th- I visit TC for the last time
June 28th- TC gets his fourth ultrasound (180 days of rehab)
July 6th- TC COMES HOME, THAT'S TODAY


Looking back at December, obviously I feel a lot of regret, frustration, pain, etc. I've gone through times where I've convinced myself that had I not tried to ride after that one initial day that he came up NQR, I would have not had to wait all these months because TC wouldn't have been hurt so badly.

And yah, I feel like that sometimes because it's probably true. I've really let myself have it. But thinking that way is not good for anyone. It doesn't stop what happened from happening. I can't go back in time. All I can do is my best, and I feel like, given the information I had at the time, I gave it my all. I sacrificed a lot the last six months to keep TC at that rehab center. And I'm sacrificing a lot now as I've turned down two jobs that won't work with the location that I want TC to be in because of the facility/trainers I need him to be with. He will continue to get the best of the best care and I will sacrifice whatever it takes to keep him going.

One day, a long time from now, I will see this view again and it
will be marvelous
I can't make myself feel bad for a couple days where I lacked the foresight to call the vet when he was showing every sign of an abscess and no signs of the severe injury lurking inside his leg. I can't make myself feel bad for how long it took or how far away he was or even go down the rabbit hole of why did I take that horrible job in the first place and move him out of his comfortable pasture to a place with no trainer. No, stop. Yah it sucks. It's been over six months since I've had my horse home with me, but all I want to focus on now is the future.

I'm so excited for TC to come home.
I'm so excited to be at the barn I want to be at.
I'm so excited to work with the trainers that I know and love again.
I'm so excited for TC to be in training this month.

And I'm so excited to ride TC, finally. Tomorrow. Unless he bucks BRH trainer off, then maybe not. 

Tuesday, July 5, 2016

A Very Blogger Week

I saw so many bloggers last week! It started with the epic Norcal Blogger Meetup where I met a bunch of local bloggers (plans are already being made for meeting up at Menlo and elsewhere, if you're local and not on the email list but want to be, let me know!). Then on Wednesday I headed out to torment Kate's students with dressage during one of her camps. On Friday I met Kate, Emma (who was in town for work!), and L for tacos. And on Saturday, L and Emma came down to the ranch and Emma rode Rico.

Because the baby horse comes home soon (TOMORROW) and I am going to have a lot to say about that, I'm going to try to dump all this information into one post. Sorry. It's in sections for you so you can skip around.

Absolutely necessary part of riding a Grand Prix horse
Wednesday 
Kate had emailed me about coming out to teach during her advanced camp and I was super stoked to do it! I arranged to ride the almost-FEI horse in the morning and then zipped down to her barn.

I managed to find my way to her barn in the mountains easier than I thought (I never lost GPS signal, phew). It's SUCH a cute barn, totally reminds me of a barn I rode at when I was a kid.

I taught I think eight lessons? I really have NO idea, the first four (five?) lessons went by in a blur and we headed off the property to grab a sandwich and talk about ponies (of course) before heading back and teaching the rest. I taught kids of all ages and levels on different types of ponies, which was fun because all of the lessons were a little different. I got to meet internet famous Tango and Kat, as well as the other horses featured on Kate's blog. Including Danny the morgan who I totally loved (and I heard his rider who hasn't ridden him much say "I really want to ride him more" after her lesson. She should, he's really cute on the flat!).

Riot loves selfies
I won't go into each lesson, but there were underlying themes. First, Kate's riders are all really well matched with their horses. Even though some horses would spook, no rider was nervous or overfaced, which is always a fear of mine coming into a clinic. In the last several clinics I've taught, I've had at least one completely inappropriate pairing and it's so hard to deal with that in a clinic setting. I don't want to be the clinician saying "that's an inappropriate match" when it might just be a bad day.

Second, the riders all take instruction- even nitpicky, boring, constant stream of instruction- really well. They all really think about their riding and genuinely want to improve, no one argued with me or struggled to understand what I was saying. The more talkative of them drilled me with questions and asked for clarification and all of them had clear plans of what they wanted to get out of the lesson, which makes my life a million times easier.

Rico trying to tell Emma that her quarter ran out

Finally, they all have great basics down. It's so hard on a rider who comes in saying "I want to go First level tomorrow" and you realize that they have no idea where they're sitting or how to put the horse on the bit. I always feel bad being like "everything you know and everything you do is wrong and let's start with walking on a circle." I've been there as a rider and it sucks.

But all the riders were quiet in the tack, with appropriately independent seats for their level, and knew the basic progression that they were on- so I was able to jump right in with the nitpicky dressage without shutting anyone down. All three of those things makes me certain that Kate is basically the trainer I wish I had when I was growing up (vs the one that I had who just sort of set us loose on ponies, which is good too, but not as good). Really thinking riders with great basics and excellent horses.

Rico is so cute
So the lessons were all about refinement, whether that was getting the horse on the bit and working on self carriage, changing the biomechanics of the hind legs, changing the way the horse was using their topline, or digging into developing bend and energy. And all these topics with KIDS.

That just doesn't happen- I'm not a beloved children's instructor, let me tell you, I basically just open the floodgates and stuff as many words as I can into the short amount of time during lessons. I exhaust myself, and like I said at Peony's lesson, I genuinely only expect a rider to take in a third of it. But those kids, even the young ones, really stepped up and made me SO excited about each and every one of them.

After teaching, I had some time before my evening lesson (it was a 14 hour day!), so Kate and I went downtown to hang out and grab some gelato, which I got way too much of. It was SO much fun, I don't have too many trainer friends so it was so fun to talk about the horse world from that perspective. And I feel like I did a good job of not harassing her too much about getting herself and Kat in the dressage ring. Guys. This horse. She's spectacular. Quirky, sure, but her gaits make TC look like a plow horse. Kate said something about hoping she'd go to Second and I had to resist laughing and snatching her away to be my next Grand Prix prospect.

At the end I got a sweet card from all the girls, which totally made my day! They all lied told me that they loved their lessons and thanked me for coming out. Such sweet kids!

My pony! L painted his toes to make him extra fancy

Friday
Friday afternoon after my ego bruising lesson, I headed up to L's place to pick her and Emma up and drive them to tacos. But first, I stopped in on the way to pick up Kate! Might as well have a mini blogger meetup. Unfortunately Kate had things to do on Saturday so missed out on riding :( we'll just have to get her down there another day.

L had met Emma before, so I'd heard how great she was, but it was awesome to finally meet. Driving to the restaurant was kind of hilarious because L was giving me directions and I was driving and we kept having minor issues. Emma mentioned "look, the hunter/jumper rider is directing the dressage rider" and then it got real weird, to be expected. L said to half pass left to change lanes but I thought she was just being obnoxious (she was but it was also a direction lol) and we struggled a bit. We eventually made it unscathed even with questionable, though still effective, directions.

Tacos were SO GOOD, we went to the same place that L, T, and I went on Cinco De Mayo. We mostly talked ponies and blogging. After dinner we went back to L's and hung out, but I was a party pooper and had to get up early to teach a lesson so I dragged Kate out and we headed back. More pony and blog discussions with Kate made the hour and a bit drive seem like nothing and soon I was back home getting ready for a long Saturday.

Getting ready for some piaffe, Rico is skeptical

Saturday
When I heard Emma was coming, I told L that we HAD to get her on Rico. So huge thanks to L for arranging the kidnapping and thanks to Emma for being willing to be kidnapped since the ranch is not exactly close to San Francisco. Knowing how hard Emma works with Izzy and especially with things not being so perfect right now, I really wanted to let Emma have a really great time on Rico.

Rico though, erm, hadn't really been ridden much in the last two weeks. I was riding him almost every day for a while and hauling out a lot, but I've been teaching a lot more recently and am taking care of the ranch, which means that when I get home in the evening, I have to feed and then usually just shower and go to bed rather than waiting for them to eat enough and then riding. But Rico maintained enough fitness to do a fun short ride. Hopefully now that it's cooled down a bit, I can ride him more during the day until I get swept away into another office.

Rico loves beer

Like I've said before, Rico is a saintly horse who is perfect in every way. Almost. I told Emma the normal things- he can get behind the leg so no nagging, if he's doing something it's because you're asking him to do it one (and vice versa- if you're asking and he's not doing, you're asking wrong), and for the love of god don't show me his trot before you canter. Once again, just in case you're wondering why he's in a pelham vs a snaffle or double- I sold my wheymouth to a student, and Rico has a long standing tendency to lean a little on the snaffle bit so I throw people in this bit so we don't sit on a 20 meter circle trying to get him off his forehand the whole time.

Emma rode Rico super well! They struggled a little bit with communication at first. which we all laughed about. Rico's very forward almost medium canter that he HATES doing feels like a nice collected canter to Emma so they had a talk that involved involuntary lead changes and some porpoising as Rico tried to tell Emma to stop making him work so hard.

As she got to know him, we talked about the differences in him and Isabel- for example, Rico can be quite sensitive to the aids, but in a very different way than Isabel. So Emma went to turn him and he ignored her, wondering why she was moving her hip in the way that Isabel responds rather than using her outside thigh the way I do. Woops! Just goes to show that good training comes in different shapes and sizes.

Cantering along
Then we did some piaffe and passage in hand. Rico is starting to struggle a bit with this, and it makes me really sad, but he did his best for Emma. I think he's in his last year, if not last couple months of being able to do piaffe and passage. We had a good couple of years after his last GP where he was pretty good about it so that's okay. But it was enough for Emma to play with, so that was fun!

After a little shoulder-in at the trot, we played with tempis. Emma got better and better at figuring out his canter and actually was the only person other than Heidi and I to get ones on him- he threw one in during a line of threes because she was keeping him super straight! But other than that, they were great! She got some fours and threes and even a two.

Piaffe!
We put Rico away and then hung out at the ranch. My brother was throwing a huge BBQ with a bunch of his friends that weekend, so we got to hang out with everyone afterward for lunch and drone flying over the ranch. It actually worked out well because I can't really handle a huge party like that but with horse girls providing excellent pony-related conversation and the ability to zip up to the lake with a smaller number of my friends the next day, it was a great weekend!

Ultimately it was time for Emma to leave! Most of the bloggers I've met have been super local- L and I hang out a lot and I saw Kate three times last week! And I know I'm only a short drive from Nicole and Peony, I'm up in the area enough randomly (might be up on the first weekend in August actually) so seeing them is maybe a little harder, but not like flying across the country. Boo, why are most of you people so far away?? But it just means that I need to find myself on the east coast one of these days.

Friday, July 1, 2016

2016 Q2 Review and Q3 Goals

I can't believe it's half way through the year already! Where does the time go? Alright, time to look back at our Q2 goals and look forward into Q3!

Ranch pictures from the spring when everything was green!
2016 Q2 Goals (Apr/May/June)

TC
- get a good update in April at what is hopefully our LAST ULTRASOUND for a while
Not our last ultrasound, but we got a great update! Had our LAST ultrasound on June 28th.

- continue to do well in rehab
Did quite well! Started trotting and is up to 15 minutes right now. 

- no more injuries/re-injuries
So far so good!

- continue to visit as much as I can while he's there
Yes! I even got to see him swim and walk on the eurociser a couple of times, I'm so glad I got to do that.

- (if home) don't buck me off, if I don't fall off in June I'll buy myself something pretty (like lessons)
Not home yet :(

- (if home) ride 4+ times per week and have BRH trainer ride if I can't make it
Not home yet :(

- (if home) take one lesson a week at least
Not home yet :(

- (if home) regain amazing connection that I've been dying to feel for six months
Not home yet :(

- (if home) work on channeling energy in positive ways, learn to ride the hot horse
Not home yet :(



 My Riding
- continue to ride Rico regularly until TC comes back, and maybe even continue if/after TC comes back
Yep! I didn't ride him too much in April, but I rode him a ton in May and the beginning of June

- continue riding for trainer friend when possible
Yep! I rode a lot for her in April. Now I'm riding a LOT more because of stepping briefly back into my horse trainer job. 

- continue teaching more, this will be hard once TC comes back
This got a lot better in May and June when I had more time!

- (if TC home) stay confident and in the back seat
Not home yet :(

- work on the unevenness in my seat, leg, and hand
Definitely worked really hard on this

- audit a lot of Tracey lessons
April 16th was the only one I made it to, I tried to go to two more but had to teach my own students!

- audit more clinics
Tracey April 16th was the only one I made it to- same reason as above


Msc
-(if TC home)  survive the commute to the barn, just three more months of living an hour away once as these goals are up
Not home yet :( but life circumstances brought me closer to the barn!

- run a 5k (22 more days!)
YES I survived, though the "run" part was questionable

- continue running (sign up for another 5k?) or find another way to exercise
YES I joined a gym and have been going 5x per week.

- continue working to fix my wrist
NOPE this is on hold again

- make progress on thesis
YES!

The ranch is so pretty

2016 Q3 Goals (July/August/September)

TC
- come home!
- go into training with BRH trainer
- get saddle fitter out
- put on shoes
- successfully ride in all arenas
- learn to channel his energy
- feel comfortable on TC all over the property and in all arenas
- work to regain the basics- connection, energy, straightness, etc
- start canter work
- don't buck anyone off while cantering
- ease out of full training with BRH trainer
- work on bombproofing
- (maybe) ride with Tracey, Heidi, or a clinician who comes into the barn
- (maybe) ride off the property, or at least go somewhere else to hang out
- STAY SOUND and get us in the clear by October 1st

My Riding
- continue riding Rico as often as possible
- audit as many clinics as I can, tons of people come into the barn
- continue to teach more until I get a job
- sit the trot enough on other horses to not lose it
- even out my aids
- get comfortable in the back seat

Msc
- keep going to the gym regularly
- make more progress on my thesis
- get a job :) teaching is fun and doing good things for my bank account but I miss data and air conditioned offices and health insurance


Thursday, June 30, 2016

Changing the Plan

So bad news, the show I was going to do on the little paint horse- he isn't going. The entries were due relatively quickly after we decided, and my student was away on vacation. I hate to pressure her when we have all year just because I want to show, so we've pushed that out to probably late July or August. Not a problem! It actually is fine because he needs his hocks done and more time is only going to make him score better!

All of the talk about showing the horse at rated shows this year has me feeling the itch to get TC ready to show. I'm excited to show on a horse who isn't TC, since with TC there's going to be some stress just because of his behavior at first. But I really do want to show him!

I feel like I WON'T STOP with these pictures
but they're some of the few riding pictures I have!
Soon there will be more :)
A while ago I remember writing up a plan for TC that, thinking back now, makes me slightly sad. So here's a new plan for him now that I have more knowledge:

2016 (5yo)- rehabilitation and general training, get him off the property a few times for clinics (ideally hitting 2-3 barns out of hopefully GG, Greenville, ASH, my parents' place, VR, RG, and maybe going back to HPW if I'm feeling like driving a lot) and teach him to be a normal horse in new situations; maybe show Training 1/2 at the end of the year at Greenville if I'm feeling extremely ambitious and his canter is magically fixed in rehab.

2017 (6yo)- in the spring, lots of off property trips, including some overnight ones to Tracey's barn and Heidi's barn; by summer showing solidly at Training; by fall, move up to First 1 unless I need more Training scores for some reason.

2018 (7yo)- in the spring gather scores for First level (championships, freestyle scores, etc); in the summer, debut First level freestyle if I so choose; in the fall, move up to Second 1 and maybe 2, put on lead changes over winter, maybe first Alfredo lesson.

One day I'll look up and one day this trot is going to be freakishly
amazing instead of just amazing
2019 (8yo)- in the spring gather scores for Second level (championships, freestyle scores, etc); in the summer, debut Second level freestyle and probably move up to Third level for the remainder of the season. Put lead changes on over winter if I didn't over the winter before.

2020 (9yo)- in the spring, finish up gathering Third level scores and start showing Fourth 1 as well as Third freestyle. Finish up three star rating for centerline. If he isn't getting the pirouettes on, sell him this year. If he is, ideally go PSG by the end of the year, or at least Fourth 2.

2021 (10yo)- bravely start the year with one Fourth 3 so that I can do a freestyle, spend the year gathering freestyle scores (4) for my Silver bar and showing PSG.

2022 (11yo)- finish up any PSG stuff I want to do, maybe get scores for championships if he's competitive (not likely), put up for sale if he isn't going to make it to I2, or go I1 by the end of the year. Finish up four star rating for centerline.

2023 (12yo)- use the year to get him ready for GP, do a couple I2s but make the move to GP to gather more scores. Finish up my five star rating on centerline. Put up for sale after the five star rating is achieved. Or win the lottery and keep him forever.

I forgot about this behavior... 
Obviously none of this is going to happen. Something will happen to derail us or he'll go faster or slower or he'll never come back from his injury. But I'm an obsessive planner and like to do things like this.

Hopefully I'll be able to get some goals knocked off though. One being doing a freestyle at each level required for the freestyle bars (there's only a handful of people who have all three bars and all three medals, so that'd be so cool!) and riding at CDS Championships (which switches back and forth between SoCal and NorCal- I'd only do the NorCal one because it's a lot cheaper for me to get to and hey, I've got friends in the area with cute dogs). I'd absolutely love to win an all breeds award for him, I need to look into that further.

I also need to look into the horse performance certificates for the lower levels too. And I want to finish up my centerline stars, since I'm seriously lacking in those because I couldn't afford to show a bunch at Fourth and above because I was in grad school.

All of this will depend on finances since I will be limited there (I much prefer lessons to shows, my trainer charges a LOT for lessons too) and obviously TC's soundness/talent and general luck will factor in as well. I have a tentative rule where if it starts to take more than a year a level, I'll sell him. I'm obviously hoping to get him to Grand Prix, but I don't want to spend 5 years trying to get a clean change on him or trying to get him to sit down to do a pirouette when I could sell him to someone who would enjoy him for what he's capable of and let him live a less stressful life.

How to tell your pony is on the forehand? Look how far
back his front legs go under his body. Basically going to hit
the ground face first soon.
But the horse has the mind for dressage (or at least had, hopefully he hasn't completely switched over to competitive horse swimming) and well, I've done it before?

I'm just about dying not having him back yet. MUST. BE. PATIENT. A week from today I'll be on his back. Or writing a blog post about how he almost launched BRH trainer and that I won't be on him for a while.

Wednesday, June 29, 2016

The Last Ultrasound

Yesterday was TC's fourth and last ultrasound, at least for now, in this terrible series of events. Yes, LAST ULTRASOUND for at least 90 days depending on his soundness blah blah blah. But LAST ULTRASOUND was all I heard.
Hi mom, I would talk to you but you forgot
carrots and there's a fan moving slowly
If you remember from our third (and second) ultrasound, the main issues we were facing were twofold.

First, the horse had yanked the suspensory out of the origin site enough where he took some bone with him. To fix this, after the second ultrasound, TC was put on a supplement by Platinum Performance called Osteon, as well as given an Osphos injection. Both are used to increase bone density and we hoped that it would help this site. At the third ultrasound, not much had changed. It wasn't getting worse but it wasn't getting better necessarily.

Second, the suspensory had tried to adhere itself to the splint bone. This was our biggest fear initially, since when this happens, IF the adherence is tighter than the suspensory itself, then as the suspensory stretches, it will become irritated. This puts us in chronic suspensory land and effectively ends TC's riding career unless I wanted to do surgery. I felt wishy washy about the surgery, but at the second and third ultrasounds, my vet felt like this wasn't going to be as much of an issue. But we weren't sure how it would react to trotting. This ultrasound is to look at how both of those issues responded to more work.

Still kind of derpy, but much fitter
Now TC is trotting 15 minutes and has been sound as far as the people at the rehab center could tell. He is only trotted on soft ground in the eurociser so it's not like minor lamenesses are obvious. The goal at this last ultrasound was for it to be the last ultrasound, for him to be given the okay to start undersaddle work, and more importantly, to come home. A lot was riding on this ultrasound.

Because of the heat, I got up early and rode a horse, then taught a lesson before the ultrasound. I shouldn't do this. Much like the last three ultrasounds where I worked from home and then went to see him, I basically was worthless at doing my job. Luckily teaching and riding come more naturally, so both horse and rider didn't get shafted. I just couldn't tell you what they worked on. My brain was just like "pleaselethimbeokay INSIDE LEG PUSH HIM OVER pleaselethimbesound OUTSIDE REIN MORE CONNECTION pleaselethimcomehome THAT CIRCLE HAS CANCER FIX IT NOW pleaselethimbeokay."

Around 10:15 I was finally on the road to the vet office. I had put my lesson earlier than necessary since every time I'm on time, they're early. And last time I got to hang out with TC in the stall beforehand, which made me happy.

He was a little sassy on the longe line
Interested in everything but staying quiet
This time I beat them there. It ended up not being too bad because I got to see TC come off the trailer. I expected him to be kind of explosive coming off- he was not. He arrived with another horse. I expected him to be attached to that horse and scream for the horse when it left- he was fine. A horse had been put down so was covered with a tarp right near the stalls. I expected him to be spooky and nervous about that horse- he was not.

He was so quiet and relaxed. I led him to the stall and he just sort of hung out. No screaming, no pacing, no throwing himself around. Just so chill about everything. I was much less chill. I'm normally the chill one!

When they went to longe him, he just quietly trotted around. Sometimes he would shake his head, but nothing like the explosions from last time. Nope, just quiet baby horse with a couple moments of head shaking. What? Craziness.

He was completely sound- both fetlocks dropping really well. I did get a nice lecture from the vet, and I now have a farrier. Rico's farrier. Because TC needs shoes with plastic pads (pads in the summer only). He basically isn't growing any heel and his coffin bones are RIGHT next to the ground. I'd rather lose the one and a half lessons a month in farrier fees than not be able to sell the horse in the future because he has no feet. Yay for expensive shoes, ugh.

Dude 
The ultrasound was really good too! Even though TC has been in a LOT more work than he was, his leg is still improving!

The bone issues are completely resolved. No more Osteon (phew, so expensive) and no additional Osphos injection needed (phew, SO expensive).  The ultrasound did show what my vet called a "hidden splint," which means that his cannon bone has a bump on it under the suspensory. It's smooth and doesn't get in the way, but it just means that there is less room in there for the suspensory to swell if it gets irritated. I don't mind that, because if it does get irritated, I want to know!

The adherence is still there, though it's very small (one square centimeter or so) and doesn't seem to be bothering him at all. My vet says that if the adherence is loose enough where it never yanks at the suspensory, it won't cause problems. If it does yank at the suspensory, we need to catch it soon and do surgery to remove the splint bone and clean the adherence up.  Of the horses who had this same problem, only the jumpers have needed surgery because they land on their feet a lot harder off of the big jumps than the prancy dressage horses. Dressage horses really don't get as much wear and tear on the front legs, although both of my dumb horses having ST injuries in front hardly proves that.

Can I ride it yet?

Starting to get sleepy
So we aren't out of the woods on that adherence yet. We have 90 days to have TC in full work undersaddle and then if he's sound and okay by then, my vet says that it'd be very unlikely that we would need surgery after that. So on October 6th, we're officially back.

The best news out of all of this was that TC does get to come home!!! One week from today I'll have the baby horse back in my life full time, and I am so excited about that! But still very nervous about the 90 days. I'm trying to take an it-is-what-it-is approach and just enjoy him and whatever happens happens.

Obviously hearing that he could come home made me ask lots of questions, here is a bullet point list about what information I got:

  • TC can canter! My vet wants him in a very collected canter to keep him off his forehand,. Upon hearing this, I laughed at him. The horse has no collected canter, he has no working canter, we have a frantic run sort of thing? So I am going to push his cantering out a few weeks so I can work on the collected trot first.  
  • TC is okay to go into his paddock, my vet said to keep an eye on him and put him in a box stall if he gets silly. I think he'll be quieter to ride if he's out so hopefully he stays quiet in the stall and paddock. 
  • No turnout until after the 90 day waiting period.
  • No trail riding at all until after the 90 day waiting period.
  • No real trail riding (hills) until next year, and always be careful about walking downhill.
  • No jumping until next year, but small cavallettis to get him picking up his feet are fine after the 90 days. 
  • Keep him fit so he doesn't get tired and drop his fetlock. 
  • Put him in Sports Medicine Boots and tack on a piece of plastic over his suspensory. This means I can return the boots I got from Dover (glad I didn't put him in them). I'm not sure how to make a strike guard, but I will figure it out. 

I also asked about the future. My concern is that he will not be okay to do the extended trot or the passage, since both of those are hard on the tendons. It was something that made me so nervous with Rico. But my vet said that by the time he's ready training-wise to do those things, his leg should be totally fine. Like, it's literally just these 90 days and then I can consider him completely healed and okay to do anything. He said maybe not jumping 4' or galloping on the hills, but I knew he wasn't going to be an event horse at the vet check because of his feet anyway.

So yay! Grand Prix is still tentatively in his future, though obviously unlikely for other reasons. At least (hopefully) his physical health won't be what keeps us from that level. It's likely going to be his natural talent, his rider's lack of natural talent, and logistics that keep us from the level :) which I'm totally fine with.

I don't care if he bucks me off if I can feel this trot first
I'm cautiously excited. I won't feel capable of relaxing until the beginning of October, if at all, and I'm already diverting money into an account for his surgery and am prepared to send him back to rehab this winter (the fact that I'm doing this should tell you how fucking quiet the horse is being because there was a time where he was nutty enough for me to have not chosen to do the surgery). BUT I'm trying to just focus on being excited about riding him while preparing myself financially for the worst. It can't hurt because I mean if he doesn't need surgery, I can buy a saddle I will have a bigger emergency fund. I'm also going to insure him, but the insurance very likely won't cover the surgery.

One more week to wait and then I get to have that baby horse home and attack the hell out of his mane and pathetic feathers. Oh, and RIDE him. And now, making a shopping list for my tack locker, I called my dad and he has an amazing idea to get it working for me! So excited to have my pony back!!

Tuesday, June 28, 2016

Wishing and Hoping

Today is what we hope will be TC's LAST ULTRASOUND in this awful suspensory saga. I'll be selling tickets to the musical soon to help pay off all his medical expenses.

By the time this post goes out, I'll already be getting off my first horse of the day and probably on the way to teach before the vet appointment starts at 11. It's been in the 100s so I just couldn't stand doing the vet check and then going to teach/ride. After this all I have to do is go get some delicious tea and find some air conditioning to enjoy.

A collection of my favorite pictures from rehab and ultrasounds

Resting a foot!!!
Yesterday I stopped in at my new barn to talk to BRH trainer at the request of the barn owner. I had emailed her to touch base and she said all was good, but that she wasn't sure why he needed 8 flakes of hay. Apparently the website is not up to date and they feed 4 flakes already, so double feed would be completely excessive. That's awesome! That's almost a lesson a month I'm saving.

BRH trainer was in charge of finding a stall and dealing with my crazy now that he's going to officially be my trainer. I have a trainer and will be *in training* with someone. Cool! I'm excited. I love that the pressure will be off me to deal with issues and make decisions. I know that I'm fully capable of getting through this by myself, but man it's sometimes just really nice to follow a program and turn my trainer brain off and fully enjoy my horse. Definitely less stressful.

I got there and he was working with one of my previous trainers' young horses (a lot of people send their super fancy horses to him, TC will not be the nicest horse he works with by far lol). She's two years old and just amazing. He said that she has these amazing gaits, especially when she's being bad. I only saw her walking but man she's built for dressage.

So cute!
GIMME SNAX
He showed me the stalls (12x36 paddock with 12x12 of it covered/matted) available and there was one available in the row I wanted! We talked about getting a load of blue rock in to even out the paddock a bit so there isn't such a big drop off of the stall into the paddock. That's prime for reinjury so I was glad that he brought it up so I didn't have to be a crazy person. And I went by the hardware store nearby to get no climb wire to prevent the dumb baby horse from injuring himself again. He said that if I provided it, he would have the guys put it up! That's really helpful.

I also have a tack locker! The plan is to put my trunk outside his stall so that it can hold blankets and his grain (I'm going to bag up grain each week so that the guys can feed him) and probably a few brushes/fly spray and things I might want near the stall. The tack locker is next to a set of cross ties near the covered arena, which is going to be super convenient in the winter. It's small, and actually there is a slightly bigger one next to it that might be open and I might request that one. But either way it will be fine, I have a place at the ranch to store stuff that I don't need and I can always get another trunk or something for in front of his stall.

The only downside in my mind is that I'm going to have to be creative about hanging things on the wall- I'd love a set of shelves, a bridle rack, and a saddle rack all on the walls to leave room on the ground for a few things, but the entire locker is plastic so nailing into it probably won't be an option. I'll be searching online for how to make it work for me. At the very least I want to be able to hang his bridle and longeing stuff so that will be the first thing I look into.

IS THIS SMILING?
The best at selfies
We also chatted about what to do with TC. I said I wanted him in full training for July (so basically 3 weeks) and then we'd reevaluate. Honestly we'll probably back off to half training or even just working together once or twice a week to address the minor issues he's had. It's all going to depend on how TC is. I can see it going a lot of different directions- he might find the riding work so much more interesting than swimming/endlessly circling that he calms down and focuses better. Or he might think FINALLY I AM FREE and be crazy. It's likely to be a little of both.

Our main goal is to get TC comfortable being ridden all over the ranch and in all the arenas. I'm not actually worried about riding him around the ranch. At our previous barn I would regularly hop on him bareback in the rope halter and ride him up to turnout, even after a day or two off, and then he'd explode only when he was let loose. The horse is good in the open at the walk. It's when you open the door for trotting/cantering, he thinks he can get sassy.

Then I talked to him briefly about him helping me with trail riding- me on Rico and him on TC for the first ride- but that it probably wouldn't happen until next year.

Our first lesson is scheduled for next Thursday (THAT IS SO SOON), as he's leaving on vacation and returning the same day that TC comes in, so I'll be handling TC on the first day. If he's quiet we'll walk around but if he's nutty, we'll just hang out in the paddock.

Love his little hippo face

Loves getting his lips brushed
Overall I was just SO happy to be at my barn. The familiar drive, meeting new people and seeing old friends, and just imagining going through the trail course and riding in the covered arena with mirrors and playing in the dressage court. I just love the place! It is definitely going to make a HUGE difference to be able to have the facility I need, the trainers I need with both BRH trainer and Tracey coming into the place, and the location I need. Even if I had to force the situation a little bit with my job. Worth it.

I'm also SO happy that the ultrasound is TODAY, I feel like I can't wait any longer. I have a lot of hopes and expectations for this visit. And I am a bit worried, obviously. But the worst case scenarios aren't so bad anymore.

The absolute worst case scenario (other than suddenly needing surgery, which seems unlikely but is still entirely possible) is that he needs another month or two of rehab and another ultrasound. That puts us into the fall for him coming back and that makes me nervous. The second worst case scenario is that he comes home and needs another ultrasound before he canters. I really really want this to be the last ultrasound. But another ultrasound is only money, money I will have to scrimp and save up, but it's only money.

Luckily he has been pretty sound and the leg has stayed tight. An obsessively detail oriented person who stares at horse legs all day could see that there's a difference between the two legs, but just glancing at it, you can't tell that there's anything wrong. Like I've said in the past, I don't give two shits whether his legs look terrible, I just want him sound and able to work.

Traumatized
I want that hock flexion undersaddle omg
The best case scenario is that his leg looks great and that he could come home and be ready to canter or increase trotting to 20-30 minutes right away. That's unlikely to happen. I'm guessing that we're going to be trotting undersaddle a bit less than he was doing on the walker just because there's more weight on him with a rider. Then we'll work back up to 15 minutes and then to 20 and eventually 30 maybe. I considered Rico in full work when we were doing 30 minutes of trot and 20 minutes of canter, though that seems excessive for the baby horse. Like, I don't want him capable of cantering that long.

As much as I'd love to get the okay to canter right away, I'm not banking on it. In all honesty, he will need a lot of work in trot training-wise to get him ready to canter even without taking into account the injury. With no dressage under his belt in eight months, we're going to be hanging out in walk and trot a lot to reestablish the connection/throughness and get him moving off my leg well. I wouldn't be surprised if we didn't canter until this fall just from a training standpoint. Although with his tendency to bolt, it'd be nice to start cantering in September at the latest just because of the winter.

His face kills me

Omg eight days before I get to sit on that amazing trot
So please cross everything you can and even some of the bits you really shouldn't. Today I'm really hoping to hear that my pony can come home next week.

I'm also just excited to see him, it's been a couple of weeks now!

Monday, June 27, 2016

Norcal Blogger Meetup

A while ago, like a long while ago, L and I were talking about a Norcal blogger meetup. I've only met her, Peony, and Nicole so far, while L has met I think everyone who has blogged about anything ever. We are fairly efficient people, so we decided that a big meetup would be fun.

We're creepy stalkers observant and knew of quite a few bloggers in the area so we decided to be even creepier email them and see who was available to meet up on Sunday (yesterday!) and it was great!
There were so many of us!
We ended up having quite a big group including some people who had to make the trek from quite far away!

The list:
Me (you're at my blog now)
L (Viva Carlos)
Karley (All In)
Kate (Incidents of Guidance)
Nicole (Zen Baby Horse)
Kat (A Horse is a Horse)
Emily (Wilbur, Ellie, and Emily)
Olivia (DIY Horse Ownership)
Figure/M (Topaz Dreams)
Lindsay (who doesn't have a blog but should!)

And while a few people couldn't make it either because they were busy or out of town making me jealous, it was great to get to know everyone else!

We met up around noon in the east bay for tacos. Obviously. I feel like I've taken a personal interest in L's taco count for this year. Also tacos are delicious.

After ordering our food, we grabbed a big long table and started in on the pony talk. It was so fun to compare who we all knew, as the horse world is so small. It turns out that Lindsay and I ride really close to one another now that TC is coming home. And Kate and I know a TON of the same people and are frequently at the same shows- she was actually at the show that I showed Dillon at but in the jumping arenas. If my kids go to the Woodside show, Olivia, who boards 5 minutes away from one of my training barns (and makes AMAZING horse cookies, I sort of want to eat them myself), said she may be going. So we're basically all around each other without even knowing it!

We also talked about our own horses. I got to say the words "TC comes home in a week and a half" out loud, which made me really excited. And I feel like I got to know everyone's horses a bit better just through hearing more stories. Sometimes through the blog you can't really get a feel of a horse's personality until you hear someone talk about them in person, or maybe that's just me. Unfortunately the table was long enough where I didn't feel like I got to talk to everyone enough, but that's what more meetups are for!

It honestly felt like it went by so fast, soon the numbers dwindled and five of us made it to froyo after almost four hours of chatting. L and I were still eager for more when we got home so we ended up sitting on the phone for over an hour.

Olivia, me, Figure
It was so so so much fun to meet everyone, I feel like I walked away with a bunch of new friends! We're already planning more meetings for all of us to get together, can't wait to spend more time with all these awesome people!

And completely off topic but equally as amazing: TOMORROW is TC's last ultrasound and I couldn't be more excited about it.